I'm in a pretty bad mindspace right now and I need to write it out so I can either get out of it or have it for my psychologist.
I'm just sitting here in my bed, laying really, watching clips from TV shows on YouTube. I have a test tomorrow that I am no where near ready for and wasn't expecting to take. I have a messy bedroom that needs sorting. I have blog posts I need to write for Bookmas that I haven't finished and photos I haven't edited. I feel useless. Worthless. I've wasted most of my day just sitting here. At least when I read I feel I've accomplished something because you actually need to think to read. I'm just staring mindlessly at my computer screen. I feel pathetic. Like a waste. Practically I know this is just a bad day for me. My medication isn't working that great and I don't have any real good specific goal to work towards. But low days like this really suck. Because I really do feel worthless. I just lay in my bed day after day doing nothing and that is so unhealthy. I just don't know how to fix it because it's pretty clear I can't be proactive and initiate change or routine.
