January the Eleventh 2014.

MY FATHER IS STALKING ME!!

So my parents both know I run a few different blogs... But now that I've started a personal blog my Father has suddenly decided he want's to know what I do at two in the morning and what I post about so he's been stalking me, looking up my e-mail address and online usernames and such and IT'S SO CREEPY! Like I feel I won't be able to post my true thoughts and emotions and I'm scared that I'll get in trouble for posting something or I don't even know... I just really don't want him to find my blog(s)... So I asked Mother if she could you know... Restrain her husband... And you want to know what she told me?

She said that Father sits up in bed until three in the morning playing Solitaire and Reading and I starting laughing so hard because that is literally what I do as well as Tumble and watch movies and I couldn't stop laughing.... Mother was laughing too so I think we scared Benny Boy who had just woken up...

But seriously, who would be okay with their parents following their personal blogs.. Like sure whatever you found my Tumblr blog.. Have fun looking at pictures and gifs that give me feels... Wow.. But find my personal blog and read it?  So not cool.. It would be worse than adding them on Facebook... It's not that I do anything I shouldn't... I just have friends that I mention that do do (Damn the English language) things that my parents probably wouldn't be cool with and I'm scared that they wouldn't allow me to hang out with them after finding certain things out.  It's not like they're a bad influence.  I've only drunk alcohol without my parents permission three times... And only one of those times did I get even slightly tipsy (Leprechaun I swear if you say anything I'll kill you.) and I wouldn't skipped class last year without their influence because of my anxiety.  But I don't go to parties like they do or do the frick-frack... I don't even really leave my bedroom?  And also I'm scared that my Father will find out I read books with witches, angels, demons, vampires, fae and all that other 'bad' stuff and also that I watch shows with those themes and that they won't allow me to continue reading books like that and watching movies and TV shows with those themes.... I mean I wasn't even allowed to watch Peter Pan until I was 14 because of the magic, and I mean my family has it's own personal reasons for not wanting me specifically to associate with these demonic themes but they intrigue me a lot more than novels about normal everyday life do.  Not that I don't read books that don't have supernatural themes, but most of them are YA novels which have some.. Frick-frack in them.. And I don't think my parents would condone that... But I'm seventeen... And I just don't get why they can't leave my internet life out of my outernet life.  

Anyway.. Sorry about that rant... It's just I really do like my privacy.  I have nothing (except my interest in supernatural themes in novels and media and my friends behavior which frankly has nothing to do with me) to hide.  

So it's only four in the afternoon, probably the earliest that I've begun writing a post.. But I just needed to get that off my chest... So Mother and I are doing mani's and pedi's tonight.  I'm thinking pale pinks for her because she prefers neutral colours and I'm leaning towards red toe nails and a light teal for my fingers with a singular decorative nail.  I might put glitter on that one or have it a different colour or put some polka dots on it.. Who knows.. Also I've started piling up what I need to decorate my school books and also the things that I'll be needing this year.  I can't wait to decorate my school books!  The last time I did it was grade 10, and before that I hadn't done it since primary school and I figured given that it was my last official year of education in a school environment that I should decorate them for old times sake.  I sort of have a light green polka dot and brown wrapping paper theme and I'm hoping to get some brown ribbon and I have some brown string and I think it'll look pretty good in the end.  If not then whatever I can only hope for the best.  

The thumb that the nail broke off of is annoying.  Like my other thumb is really long and I've become accustomed to it but the other thumb now feels sort of.. Underused because I tend to type with my nails as opposed to my actual fingers... Someone is honking outside my window and I'm so close to going and yelling at them because they interrupted my train of thought..

Organised my bookshelf.  Sort of.. Not all my books fitted and so I made them all at least manage to sit on the shelves istead of 30 sitting on top and well it looks silly and it's bugging me but at least now almost all of them are on the shelves and the ones that aren't are like movie companion guides and other fandom merchandise related books.  Along with a book called Monsterology which just doesn't fit height wise on the shelves.  So that happened....

I keep saying that.. So that happened.. I think it's safe to say that I blame Frozen for that line... 

I ate a whole bag of Cheezles by myself... And stole the last can of my brothers coke.. (I needed to wake up!) also found two of my missing SD cards... Forgot to eat the food Mother Dearest brought to me last night and had a wonderful dream where I met my soul mate and where I was like an oracle and he was the son to the head Alpha of all the wolves so basically like a Wolf Prince and yeah.. It was actually a pretty cool dream.. Might write a short story out of it or something and share it with you guys..?  

*Later*

Okay so I was going through my 'Likes' on Tumblr in the lounge room and Mother was behind me and I had all these ways to murder someone and get away with murder and how to dispose of the bodies and she was all shocked and it took me half an hour to explain to her that they are there for writing purposes and that I'm not actually planning to kill anyone! I don't think I have ever mentally laughed so hard.. All other thoughts literally disappeared from my mind and all my thoughts could do was laugh and then on the outside I'm trying to explain and not being able to make coherent sentences or even words because oh gosh.. It was so funny!!

So I was just helping my Mother make her bed and we found a whisker from Benny Boy's cat/kitten Tabitha -Tabby- and Mother showed it to me and I yelled "WHISKY!" and I think my neighbor thinks we're drinking... 

Just cut down all my Tumblr likes from 598 to 161.  I think that's very good indeed and a massive waste of time.  I literally feel like I have nothing to do.  I mean, I could have a shower, clean my room, do my washing, read a book, socialize, write, cook, go through my wardrobe and get rid of the 70% of clothes I don't wear, get a tan, go for a run, go for a bike ride, go get my L ones, read comics in the library, wash the dogs, help clean the house, play Sims, write a better post for today, make 500 random accounts and make them all popular and promote this blog, shave my legs (they're kinda getting gross...), build my other bookshelf -it's a flat pack and I don't even remember where it's stored, play solitaire, pester my Father or Benny Boy.  The list goes on and on... But instead I basically went through my Tumblr history.  Oh fun fact, I used to be just a book blog.. I saw the decrease into madness... It started out with Doctor Who, then Sherlock then it just spiraled out of control... It was kinda amusing..  

Wow.. Today's post is pretty long.. I should actually do something interesting tomorrow... Then reading all this would be a little more entertaining.  

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So Benny Boy just asked me why I'm bothering to try and get my learners permit and before I can reply Father announces it's going to rain later this week and Benny Boy just shuts up and turns around and that was pretty funny.. Like that finger lick Doritos add for the Superbowl.  That was funny too...

*Later*

So our internet just stopped working and I kid you not I yelled at my Father asking what was wrong with the internet and at the same time Benny Boy yells out because his game needs the internet and he was freaking out yelling at dad from downstairs and Mother yelled out asking why the cat video stopped and all my Father said in reply was "I'm as panicked as the rest of you so will you all shut up so I can fix the damn problem!".   My family everyone.  

I feel really lost.. I have no music because I was listening to YouTube, I have no social networking and I have no goodreads.com browsing for my next novel.... GAH THE TOURTURE I AM FORCED TO END- Oh it's back.  

Whoop there is it.. Gone again, I should have guessed.... Father changed internet companies or whatever and ever since we've been having connection issues and it is the worst for phone WiFi and it's just so annoying! 

Ha! I just confused Mother Dearest! She thought I was dying but I was just making those weird noises from that song off of The Jungle Book, I Wanna Be Like you or whatever?  You know, shubey do da ba, ba da da di do, whooby do hooba, shaba da ba walla etc... Haha, yeah that was funny....I NEED THE INTERNET BACK! I NEE- It's back again! 

I'm literally just sitting here waiting for the internet to crash again.... I think I might read The Unbecoming Of Mara Dyer by Michelle Hodkin because it's been on my to read list for so long! Don't think I'm going to end up painting my nails tonight.... Although I really must at some point soon so I can put nail hardener on them..And it's gone again. Getting real tired of that dinosaur Chrome. I should probably post this before I write any more useless things that no one actually cares about... And before the internet crashes again.. 

Live long and prosper, godspeed(and may your internet never disappear).

Becca.

January the Tenth 2014.

Books and Beds.

Sorry guys, just a quick post today because I haven't done anything... All I've done is sit in my bed and read the Star-Crossed series by Rachel Higginson.  Well.. Skim read but only the irrelevant looking parts!  It wasn't my fault! I needed to know things and see how everything turned out because.. REASONS! 

Anyway.. In case any of you doubt this I've needed to pee for the past 6 hours and Mother Dearest has called me for dinner 13 times but has now given up.. I just finished the last book.. Sort of?  The last book in Eden's POV anyway, and the official last book.. But there are two more books in the series... So yeah... ANYWAY! So that's what I've done today.  I also broke a nail last night... Posted something on Facebook that I thought may be interesting when it happened..

I broke a nail....

That is literally the girliest thing I've ever said besides anything boob or period related...

But seriously.  It's my thumb nail and they were so long that the part that fell off is half the size of the remaining nail...  It looks so weird next to my other thumb nail... I need a fake nail to make it look normal again...  And it's three in the morning and sleep deprivation is making me emotional about the loss.

Yeah... So that happened... Ummm Not much else to write... Although I highly recommend that series to anyone who likes books on Soul Mates, Witches, Shifters and you know just overall rebellions and wars and psychotic kings and sexy princes.  So.. Yeah.. Well I stink so I'm probably going to have a shower then paint my nails with a nail hardener so the other ones won't break or flake or anything that rhymes like that... I don't know what I just said I literally haven't slept more than 4 hours this past 36 hours and I've eaten way too little... So yeah.. Ummm..

Live long and prosper, godspeed.  

Becca.  

January the Ninth 2014.

Contemplative Theory on Soul Mates

Okay,  so something you guys may not know about me is that I'm practically obsessed with Soul Mates, or the idea of them.  I'm not sure how to explain it so I'll just type as I go and hope I stay on topic.  

So I've always loved fairy tales and the idea of true loves kiss.  When I was little it was my dream to find my Price Charming who's kiss would be... Well magical.  So as a child that's what I desired but growing up I've come to realise that a relationship is a lot more than just love at first sight and kissing.  After 2011 when I became re acquainted with reading and began reading novels for people my age (YA) I noticed that I leaned towards novels that were about Soul Mates (Like Shelly Cranes series Significance and sometime PG Werewolf novels.).  I just loved the idea and the concept and after taking a Ancient Civilizations class at College (Grade 11) last year and looking at myths I found a Greek one about the creation of man that I soon fell in love with.  

"According to Greek Mythology, humans were originally created with four arms, four legs and a head with two faces.  Fearing their power, Zeus split them into two separate beings, condemning them to spend their lived in search for their other halves."

Plato, The Symposium

Now as a Jewish person I sort of felt bad for believing in what I was sure my parents would call ridiculous or say that given my religion I shouldn't think about such pagan things.  But when I told my Mother she told me to look up the word Bashert.  Confused I did and found a Wiki article on the Yiddish (Jewish) view on soul mates and was pleasantly surprised. 

"Bashert is a Yiddish word that means "destiny".  It is often used in the context of one's divinely foreordained spuse or soulmate, who is called "basherte" (female) or "basherter" (male).  It can also be used to express the seeming fate or desting of an auspicious or important event, friendship, or happening.

The idea of basherte(r) comes from the statements found in classical rabbinic literature.  A proverb that "marriages are made in heaven" is illustrated by a story in a midrash collection:

A Roman matron, on being told by Rabbi Jose ben Halafta that God arranges all marriages, said that this was an easy matter, and boasted that she could do such herself.  Thereupon she assembled her male and female slaved and paired them off in couple; but on the morrow they all went to her with complaints.  The she admitted that divine intervention is necessary to suitable marriages.  (Genesis Rabba lxviii.  3-4).

Even God himself finds it difficult an undertaking as the dividing the Red Sea.  Forty days before the child is born its mate is determined upon.  (Genesis Rabba lxviii.  3-4)

In modern usage, Jewish singles will day that they are looking for their bashert, meaning they are looking fir that person who will complement them perfectly, and whom they will complement perfectly.  Since it's considered to have been foreordained by God whom one will marry, one's spouse is considered to be one's bashert by definition, independent of whether the couple's marital life works out well or not."

But what do I think a soul mate is?  Well in basis a person you love romantically, a person who complements you and who you complement perfectly in regards to personalities.  Someone you feel a strong instant connection with.  You feel like you were incomplete but now you're whole again. When you're together you feel stronger, not physically, just stronger in believing in who you are and what you're capable of. Mental strength I suppose? 

I also like to think that our souls may be reincarnated and in each life and we are to reunite with our soul mates.  But that's a little more far-fetched for me and sticks closer to my dreams of faeries and werewolves. Also, this theory doesn't coincide with my religions view of what happens to our souls after death. 

So there you have it guys.. Anyway.. So yeah, I believe in Soul Mates, and all that other fairy tale stuff romance stuff. I'm naive what can I say..

Live long and prosper, godspeed.

Becca.

January the Eighth 2014.

Sleepy Becca

Okay, I'll make this quick because I'm really sleepy..

So today I had planned on going to the beach with Cookie, her boyfriend -let's call him Sharp- and Leprechaun but it wasn't the happiest of days in regards to the weather and Cookie and I both felt like it was a onesie, Disney movie, junk food kind of day rather than tanning and reading kind of day.  So that didn't happen.  

Instead I helped clean our lounge room with Mother Dearest whilst listening to ABBA singing along off key and dancing together -it took a lot longer than what was required.  Then once that album was over I came back in my room- OH! I was meant to say that I woke up before 11 am today!  8:30! New holiday record I think? Anyway.. Back on topic.  I came back into my room then Leprechaun came over later and we just sort of.. Scrolled through Tumblr laughing our asses off.  We had chips together with Benny Boy and a guy who may as well be my brother, Christopher Robin, from the chip shop down the road.  Later I kicked Leprechaun out and sent him home because I was feeling crabby and sleepy and yeah.. Anyway so I've just sort of been sitting on my computer doing nothing -actually I was looking at books with the tag 'Soul Mates' on Goodreads.com looking at what would be a good read that I haven't already read 4 times..

Benny Boy came to Mother Dearest about an hour ago and in his baby whiny voice declared he wanted Macca's for dinner and that he wanted to buy me some dinner too, so Mother Dearest just drove us out at near ten at night to get dinner from Macca's.  It was good but I've got bread from my bun stuck in my braces even after brushing and it's gross... 

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Anyway, I'm off to the land of dreams.  

Live long and prosper, godspeed.

Becca

January the Seventh 2014.

Too lazy.

Hi. I am Leprechaun.  Now first thing you should know is Becca is a lazy little thing and can't be bothered writing.

So, my 'name' is Leprechaun and I shall be your substitute teacher for today.  My life has been a very fast, hard one.  From being in a gang of pick pockets, to stabbing someone, to sleeping under bridges.  I also have P.T.S.D (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) and drink way too much to keep myself not a quivering wreck. 

Now that introductions are done with.  

My day has consisted of three things.  I went climbing.  I had excessive amounts of alcohol. ( >.<)  And I talked to an old friend.  

Okay.  So Climbing.  If any of you have heard of bouldering, that is what I do.  I climb from the bottom of the beach to the light house that's up the cliffs as fast as I can.  It can be quite dangerous and you are supposed to take someone with you.  I never do and that is stupid of me.  But that's just me.  I do several stupid things a day.  Anyway.  So I was climbing and slipped.  Almost fell off the edge that would have killed me.  So that was fun and all.  Next subject?

(LEPRECHAUN YOU STUPID BLOODY FOOL!! I HAVE ENOUGH ANXIETY WITHOUT WORRYING ABOUT YOU ACCIDENTALLY DYING!!) 

Alcohol.  Now this is something that is close to my heart (That I do not condone).  Alcoholism is my chosen religion but I am not an alcoholic!  I am a drunk.  Alcoholics go to meetings.  (I am so close to carrying you to the meetings myself!)  Anyway.  I like anything that burns as it runs down the back of my throat.  If I can't get that I'll get a peer or can of Jack's.  That's enough about alcohol.  (Yes it is!)

Now my friend.  Let's call her... Paul.  (What?) She apparently has had feelings for me for a while.  Unfortunately I do not reciprocate these feelings.  So that is awkward.  I live in Tasmania and she lives in the Northern Territory.  So at least I won't have to see her any time  soon.  

He just apologized to.. Paul?.. and myself for nearly killing himself out on the rocks.  The damn fool will give me a heart attack one day soon.  He'll be receiving two painful slaps tomorrow.  

Any last words Leprechaun?

Don't drink like I do.  I'm Irish and French.  I can hold my drink. 

May you drink like the Irish and have fun like the French. (You just.. Oh whatever) 

I'm out.

The Drunken Leprechaun.  

January the Sixth 2014.

Ben, Sleep and Fall Out Boy.

So my brother just came in my room on all fours barking like a dog.  He used to do that at school too.  It's why  I decided to go to a different high school to him.. Sad isn't it?  I went out to get a glass of water earlier and mum and him were sitting on the couch watching Informercials and he was sucking/chewing on her hands.  It makes me sad seeing my older brother act like this.. I mean he has been so much better, far more mature and controlled, since we moved to Tasmania... But every now and then 'Baby Ben' comes out and it's sort of like a giant slap in the face that he will be like this for the rest of his life.  He;ll never 'grow' up further than he already has mentally.  He'll never get married or have children of his own.  He'll miss out on so many of the joys of life.  I just hope everything goes well with the course he's taking next year for Game Designing.  It'll give him a better purpose than waking up each day just to play Minecraft and Sims.. I kind of sound like he isn't smart or capable.  But that isn't it.  He's so smart and I'm so unbelievably proud of him, I just wish he had the opportunities others have.  

Okay, I have no idea what I'm writing anymore... Onto the next topic, please ignore whatever you read previously? 

So I woke up earlisish today.  11.  I think that may be a record for 2014?  Whatever, that's all I have to say for that topic, but I like the titles to be in three's so it made it in there! At least it wasn't Sims, right?

Okay, so after deciding I wanted to drown everything out for a little while because my anxiety was piquing I decided to listen to Fall Out Boy's album Save Rock And Roll and can I just say how amazing The Phoenix and Alone Together are?  They are possibly my new favorite songs..  Maybe? For the mood I'm in now, this whole album is perfect.  Not because of the words or anything meaningful like that, just because it's loud and blocks the voices in my head out.  

I sound a bit like a crazy person when I put it like that.... Appropriate I suppose?  

Well I don't have much else to say, but I just asked some friends to send me some random questions to ask so I can maybe let you guys know a little more about me?  So now I wait... *cricket's chirp*

WE HAVE A QUESTION! 

What is your favorite Supernatural moment?  For some reason all I can think of is when Dean randomly dies in the shower.. But also any moment that looks like a Destiel moment.  I've only seen up to season 7 so nothing recent.. 

-On a side note I'm currently bobbling my head to The Phoenix and lip singing along because apperntly when I sing out lout the neighbors can here... Awkward..-

How's the boyfriend thing going?  It's not. 

Anything new with Leprechaun's friend?  Not Leprechaun, she hasn't been on your account since the last time... 

What are my plans for the summer?  Ha.. Plans?  Well, sleeping and reading are priority but other than that it's improvised.  

How are you?  I'm good, well no I almost had an anxiety attack before.. But loud music and writing are curing that. 

Marvel or DC?  Marvel.

OTP(s)?  Percy and Annabeth (Percy Jackson and the Olympians and Heroes of Olympus by Rick Riordan)  Tobias and Tris (Divergent series by Veronica Roth :ALLEGIANT NEVER FRICKING HAPPENED), Anna and Krisoff (Frozen by Disney), Rapunzel and Eugene (Tangled by Disney), Travis and Abby (Beautiful Disaster by Jamie McGuire), Daemon and Katy (Lux series by Jennifer L. Armentrout) and I think I'll finish up with Maggie and Caleb (Significance by Shelly Crane) 

How have my holidays been?  Lazy.  Very lazy.  They started out adventurous hanging out with Leprechaun and walking around town and what not but I've gotten lazy. 

What do you like about yourself?  I umm.. well.. I like..... I'm stumped... I think maybe I like my personality?  Not not really.. Hate that.. I can be so annoying sometimes.. Hmm.. I KNOW! My eyes, they're this pretty green and sometimes there's gold there depending on the light and the outer circle is a really dark blue.  I can't explain it and you can't capture it on camera but they're really pretty! Not as pretty as Chris Pines or Benedict's though.. 

Favorite snack to eat during a movie?  Popcorn, duh.  But wait.. I just got braces the other week.. I don't know if I can eat popcorn?  OH MY GOSH! What if I can't!?! My movie enjoyment will die down to very minimal!  

Favorite movie?  At the moment?  Frozen.  

Favorite quote?  "It is a truth universally acknowledged that a single man in possession of good fortune must be in want of a wife."  and "My thoughts are stars I cannot fathom into constellations." 

What inspires me?  I honestly don't know.. I could think for hours and not come up with anything to answer this...

If you could have any superpower, what would it be?  I don't know.. I sort of want to be able to fly but I'm so uncoordinated.. Next i would say mind-reading but I've read about that enough to know it would be annoying and well.. Bad... So maybe the same powers as Mr Fantastic and Mrs Incredible?  Being able to stretch my limbs and be like all elastic and stuff.  Or maybe I'll just be whatever Deadpool is.. 

Okay, I'll stop now.. Have a nice whatever time it is now..

Live long and proper, godspeed.

Becca.  

January the Fifth 2014.

Sleep, Sims, Sleep.

It's come to my attention that Sims is a frequent topic because I don't have a social life at the moment.  My sincerest apologies.  

Anyway, so today I woke up at 3 pm by my mother instructing me to go and play Sims to wake my brother up- the gaming computer is in his room.  Now if this request wasn't strange enough, let's also include the fact that I didn't want to play Sims.  Which has frankly never happened before... I mean I've been Sim deprived for over 2 years and I only just got it back and.. Yeah.. So that happened.  Benny Boy woke up, threw a hissy fit because I apparently woke him up to early then he went upstairs to eat some food or something, I don't know.  Mum went out and bought us some hot chips from the chip store up the road, Benny Boy managed to sneak onto the computer, I sulked, came to room, planned on writing this post.  Fell asleep.  

Then I woke up from a very sweet dream, no I'm not going to give you details, why?  Because I don't remember any, I just remember waking up feeling loved and adored and I had little butterflies in my tummy.  So I'm assuming it was a sweet dream.  I mean, why would I have butterflies in my tummy and be feeling adored if I just killed a crew of pirates or became the sole ruler of the world.  

Now onto something very serious, an event that made me cry and stay up until the wee hours of the morning.

After posting yesterdays blog the number of views on this wee little baby blog doubled in under four hours.  Doubled.  I'm not a popular blog, I mean this blog only started five days ago.. So I don't have thousands of viewers or followers.  But the small amount that I had doubled and is now, to me, a large number.  So I just wanted to say a big thank you to anyone and everyone that views my blog.  You may not subscribe, or follow or ever really like what I'm posting, but you made me cry from joy at three in the morning.  So thank you!  

I feel weird writing emotional stuff so I'm going to stop and leave that for a serious post not a general post.  Which this is.

So, how was everyone's day?  The weather where I am was atrocious this afternoon.  It might have been nice this morning.. Wouldn't really know.. Don't even know what it's like now.. 

I won't do this often, but if you enjoyed this post, or any of the post previously posted, please subscribe.  Comment below what you would like to see and hear more of, give me your opinions!  I'm planning a nice little hang out day with some of my friends so maybe that will give me something worthwhile to write about, but honestly until school starts up again I'm not going to be all that social.  So yeah, subscribe, follow me on Twitter (@Becca_Theory) I also track the hashtag #thebeccatheory on Tumblr and follow it on Twitter. So yeah.. 

Well I've been summoned by Mother Dearest, I'd best go see why she requires my services.  

Live long and prosper, godspeed.

Becca.