January the Twenty Ninth 2014.

Can't Think Of  A Title At The Moment So Unless I Come Up With One By The End Of This Then Enjoy This Shitty Title.  

Have you ever wanted something so much, but not thought you were good enough for it?  That's how I feel about a lot of things.  A lot of people.  I don't think I'm good enough for my friends, I always forget what they tell me, I'm not good at consoling people, I'm not good at socializing outside of our small friendship group.  I don't think I'm good enough for my parents, I never do what they tell me, and I constantly feel like I'm disappointing them. I don't think I'm good enough to own my pets, I never feed them, and basically ignore them unless they come to me.  I don't even really think I'm worthy of having so many viewers... So all this makes me feel like even if I want things, or want people (not necessarily in a sexual way, get your heads out of the gutter.  Oh?  Just me?  Okay, whoops..) that I'm not worth them because I won't treat them right.  I don't think I'm worthy of good grades because I'm not smart.  I'm not sure if I always feel this way and it's just buried beneath my act or my mask but sometimes it comes up and it hurts... It hurts my heart realizing I think this poorly of myself.   And the part that sucks?  Just because I know doesn't make it easier... Or help me solve it.

Okay, so I totally lost my train of thought there.. Mother called me for dinner and now -after dinner- I just can't stop thinking about food and how full I am but how much I love Red Velvet cake with Cream Cheese Icing! Damn, such a delicious combination... 

Okay, so tomorrow I have to go into school to collect my school supplies, re-enroll, get my time table, and pay a book fine for a book I lost last year that I borrowed from the library.  I'm heading in earlyish, around 9.  I'm meeting Leprechaun and his mum there.  We're also getting school photos for our ID cards.  I might post the result here if it's better than last years (and frankly ANYTHING is better than last years ID photo).  Also I decided on the punishments I'm putting myself through to pay for not blogging for three days.  I shall be uploading a video of them for your infinite enjoyment.  I won't say what I'm going to be doing just yet but let's just say that two are really embarrassing and the other is just gross.  So look out for that in the next few days! I'll be uploading it on my YouTube channel which I'll link here [https://www.youtube.com/user/BookwormWoes].  You can also subscribe because any videos I post in the future here will be uploaded onto YouTube.  I have a few other links you can find on my channel over there and if you want to follow me on any social media sites just comment below and I'll upload a post with all my links on it.  I can't wait till I can create my own blog art and cover arts and so on... The ones available are just so.. Not me.. And pretty ugly too.  

Anyway I have no idea what I've been saying, but I have a headache. I've mostly been reading all day... Going to have a shower tonight (I don't think I've had one in like 3 to 4 days and that is pretty rank.. But I'm on holidays and the days merge into one.. So not my fault, right?).  I don't have anything else to say at the moment.. Oh yeah, my Facebook was messing up last night and it caused some amusing conversations.  I'll post the screenshots on Twitter or Instagram or something, maybe?  Whatever.

Live long and prosper, godspeed.

Becca.