Daydreaming, Polka Dots, and Missing Friends.
Hey guys.
I need to think of something to call you all? I'm open to suggestions, Leprechaun you're not allowed to contribute. Just comment them below, tweet me (@Becca_Theory), or send me a message from here.
So today started out late as most do, I'm sure that'll change on the fifth. Why? Because school starts back up. [I just messed up the lyrics to the song currently playing and Father Dear yelled from his room that I failed.. Charming man.] So where was I? Oh that's right, so school starting back up, but today i did wake up at quarter to twelve. I didn't do much after waking up.. Leprechaun was at my house and we just sort of sat and read for a few hours.. Just a very chill day. I was reading a book of his called Tithe by Holly Black. It's actually pretty good so far so I suggest that to anyone who likes books about the Fae and Faeries and that sort of thing. Anyway, I actually had a shower today, didn't shave my legs, need to do that before school starts.. Yep, had a shower Leprechaun accompanied Mother Dearest and myself to my orthodontist appointment. After that I came home and caught up with some of the British YouTubers videos that were posted today (Zoe, Alfie, Louise, Joe, Louis, and Tanya) and Leprechaun continued to just read or whatever.... Anyway Mother FINALLY took him home, I have to admit I was kind of getting pissy at him because I had spent to much time with him the past 48+ hours. After he left I started adding a few things to my Pinterest board for my future apartment that I currently don't own. But I will, one day. I'm actually still doing that, if you want to check that board out here's the link so go and check that out if you want. After a little while I decided to paint my nails because I really needed too. It's not actually for like fashion and looking pretty, I used to bite my nails before I got braces and that kept my nails short and I didn't know it but I actually have really flimsy nails.. They break so easily and they like flake? So I've been using nail strengthener on them and because I still put my finger nails in my mouth I decided to paint them because I never try to bite my nails when they're painted. So yeah, painted them. They actually match my school books! They're green with white polka dots except for one finger on each hand, the one next to my pinkies is white with green polka dots. They're really cute, but now I'm going that thing people do when they paint there nails where I'm using the pads of my fingers for everything and trying not to smudge them. They are just so cute!
So they day dreaming? Yep that comes in here, while I was waiting for them to dry in between layers I had this weird thought that I saved/helped a really attractive male at school and he was passing out or maybe waking up from having passed out? Anyway, the first/last thing he said was "There are polka dots on your finger nails." and it was with a really adorable smirk and then I don't know I fast forwarded? And he didn't know who I was but he was looking for me all over the school and when he found me it was because I intervened and broke up a fight that two boys were having over a girl or something? Anyway, it was just really cute and I'm not wishing I had the power of premonition because damn he was dreamy. Dark hair and dark eyes, dimple on his left cheek, adorable smirk, playful eyes, abs (even though he was wearing a top, I imagine he probably did have abs, you can tell by their arms). Damn, it's like he walked out of one of my books.. Probably did.. Anyway, so that's day dreaming and polka dots.
The last topic up for discussion is missing friends.
And no, i'm not talking about childhood friends or even friends that I just haven't contacted since school finished for the year. I'm talking about missing my best friend. As you know Cookie is also one of my best friends. But she hasn't come up all that much here. Why? Because we've hardly done anything.. I get that she has a job, a boyfriend, and a life outside of Leprechaun and myself, but I miss her. Every time I see her lately Sharp is with her. I know they're dating, but they've only been together for a few months and they're already considering moving in together and just today they bought a puppy. They. Not Cookie alone, or Sharp alone. Nope, they. I know that they've known each other since primary school and that they dated in grade eight (until he cheated) but still, it feels like they're moving really fast. I know Cookie, she does this. Moves really fast in relationships and it worries me... Anyway, so I miss my best friend. It's not that Sharp isn't an okay guy. He is. It's just, as I've said before, he's sort of emotionless and doesn't say much.. And not in a mysterious attractive way. It's juts like he doesn't have anything to contribute to the conversation and when he does contribute it isn't much. I don't know how they are alone, and frankly I really don't want to know. But what I do know is that I feel like I'm losing my best friend. She's always with him, and even though she apologizes for this, she always talks about him.. I'm sort of over it.. I don't want to go on a lunch date with my best friend and have her gush over her boyfriend the entire time, yes it should come up, but should the whole conversation revolve around him? No. I don't know where I'm going with this, but what I am just realizing is that I'm bitching about my best friend and that is so wrong of me.. Cookie and Sharp if you see this I'm so sorry... I'm not including it for the public, but for myself to keep tabs of how I felt when.. I just.. I miss how Cookie and I were before Sharp came around and basically stole her from both Leprechaun and myself. She used to come online (Facebook) and we'd talk for ages about nothing but now it takes over twenty four hours for her to see a message that's actually of importance. Some of you may be thinking 'Why don't you tell her?' well I'm not good at confronting people. I mean I would love to hold an intervention, but even with my own best friend I don't have the confidence and I don't think this is something I can explain to her online. It's something that needs to be said face to face. Anyway, now that school is starting I'm hoping Cookie and myself will be able to spend more time together. I'm so sorry Cookie if you see this. I just, I needed to rant it out and I love you too pieces, but yeah.
Anyway, now that I've ranted about my best friend, and made myself feel despicable because of it, I think I might go and read Tithe or some college romance novel. Not sure what I feel like at the moment. Oh and on a side note, brushed my hair today.. That doesn't happen often.. It's really straight. I sort of like it like this.. Anyway, night. Don't forget to suggest a name for me to call you guys.
Live long and prosper, godspeed.
Becca.
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