Is A Heading Required?
So I really didn't do a lot today.. Mostly just slept on and off all day.. Not feeling all that great to be honest... I don't even know what is wrong, I feel like if I were to eat something I would just vomit it back up -same with liquids. My back is killing me but I'm pretty sure that's due to my poor posture and the way I sit when I'm writing.. Or just the way I sit with my laptop on my lap while chilling in bed... So I haven't got much to post today because I don't feel like blabbering on about a bunch of bullshit that no one gives two craps about... So I thought I would just put a gif or two here.. BUT my internet isn't working well enough for me to be bothered to scour Tumblr for an hour or two just to find some specific gifs that I feel are appropriate... So I'm not going to do that... I'm just going to go back to feeling like shit both physically and mentally and listening to Fall Out Boy.... Maybe a bit of Natasha Bedingfield? I don't know.. I just want to stop the noises in my head and the physical pain I'm feeling... Why won't those voices stop? I don't even know what they're saying, they're mumbled and broken or whispered and it makes me panic... Not the same panic as my dreams but just... Well I guess my nightmares are more than panic it's fear.. This isn't panic it's.. Troublesome... I don't know I can't explain it.. I don't understand.. The music blocks them out.. It numbs it.. I think I'm going to break my ear drums one of these days... I probably wouldn't like music as much if that happened... I'm going to leave it here so I don't say something stupid...
Sorry.
Live long and prosper, godspeed.
Becca.
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